Just a thought

I had a talk with my best friend a few days ago. All of a sudden, we stumbled into this college topic. Not the 'college-friends' topic, but about our majors. My best friend is majoring Environmental Engineering and for the slightest sight, I thought she found her heart there. And yes, she did find her heart. However, she told me that she wanted to study archeology in the first place but after did some re-thinks, she chose Environmental Engineering. I did not ask why. The kind-of surprising part was that she asked me, "Why did you choose International Relations? I thought you were into this artsy-thing." It took me a long time to answer that. And I began to ask myself why.

Well, I always wanted to pursue art. Always have, always will. I am fond of art, whatever its medium might be. But God knows I am no good at such field. I have been learning photography for almost four years now. To tell you the truth, it is not that easy. I am also eager to learn how to draw. I once joined this drawing course but never attended the class when I got accepted at International Relations. Sometimes I force myself to make a good drawing. Hmm, maybe force is not the right word. I keep telling myself that I can make a good one, but the result always turn out to be... not so good hahaha. From that point I think maybe I am not destined in art but in some other field. Yeah, call me pessimistic.

International Relations may be that other field. I was thrilled when finally I learned about Politics, IR and its contents, etc. It was a whole new thing for me. As the time passed by, I started to feel inconvenient in International Relations. We have to do analysis -which is something, again, I am not good at. There's assignment for each lesson per week (okay, lebay) but sometimes that happens! I can not cope with that. Questions have been wandering in my mind ever since. Do I really belong here? Is this this really what I wanted? Sh*t man, and I have always ended up regretting why I picked International Relations instead of Art. My friends who study art in a particular university -which very much I would like to go to- insist me to move to Art. I want to but it is not that easy-weasy. I mean, it is a big deal for me, especially when it comes to my parents. It is not as easy as flipping your hands. We talk about a completely different major, talk about money because I know it ain't cheap, and well talk about this past year I have passed in IR. Just before I come to decide if I am going to move or not, my best friend said, "You do not regret one thing. You will be doing just fine in IR. You may not feel it right now, but I am sure it will show one day. Let's just wait for the bigger picture." Maaaan, how those words are so thought-provoking.

So my point is, for those of you who are still confused about what major you should take or what choice you should make, you have to think it carefully. Choose what becomes of YOUR interest over somebody else's interests. Trust me, it felt different to do something what you actually you want to do instead of fulfilling someone's wishes. You will find the joy in it.

Cheers!